Late Night Thoughts
Sometimes life feels like an endless cycle.
During the school semester, I always have assignments and homework with deadlines coming up. However, it's not enough that I'm drowning, so every day I get time to watch YouTube or play video games on my laptop. But then when I think about doing something else productive like starting a coding project or learning, my mind turns back to the school work that's coming up, and I never end up doing anything.
Over break, I have literally nothing to do, and I honestly get bored of doing nothing. The first two days of watching hours of YouTube and gaming are fun, but then it wears off. I sometimes wish over break I had things with deadlines to encourage me to do them.
Being a CS major, i take these classes in school but so much depends on the projects and languages we do and learn in our own time during job recruitment. I hate working on something I'm not passionate about, so I often struggle to get myself to code projects when I don't have a good idea I like, and I'm not a creative person so ideas are far and wide.
I also really need to decrease my screen time. I spend way too many hours on my laptop, but how do I reduce it? When I'm in my room, I feel like there's nothing to do but be on my laptop. I try to stay off my devices when I'm out or with friends or eating, but in my room it's inevitable. And I spend a lot of time in my room. It's the worst over break, because I stay at home all day except when going on walks with my family after they get off work or we play tennis or such.
I got back into Pokemon Go during early covid quarantine as a way to get out of the house, but my screen time definitely didn't decrease that much, as the additional time I spent on walks I was busy catching pokemon.
My mentality needs to change, but I don't know how, and until I figure out how to, I'll be constantly thinking about this at night when I'm taking a break between sources of entertainment and trying to decide if I should sleep at 1 or 2.